Saturday, January 20, 2007

Pure Joy

a. Intense and especially ecstatic or exultant happiness.
b. The expression or manifestation of such feeling.

My oldest daughter is 4. And she is VERY MUCH 4, if you will. She is curious and busy and adorable and very outgoing. It seems that I remember, even at that age, being very self conscious of what I said, what I did, how I looked and what people, peers and elders alike, thought of me. Not a good thing for a four year old to have to worry about. Granted, I had some issues that led to me feeling that way - stuttering being one of them, but I have a feeling that even if Kylie stuttered it wouldn't stop her from being who and how she is. She is one of a kind...

The other day when Jason got home, we all piled on Macey's new bed and, as the kids called it, "roughed up." This usually consists of some throwing around, chasing, tickling, and A LOT of screaming. Normally, I would hide in the kitchen and finish dinner or do something else while Jason takes his turn with the kids. But, this night I was in the thick of it, right along with Kylie.

It was a very cool moment for me. I was tickling her and was able to watch just her face. She has an adorable smile - but usually when she is trying to smile for a camera or something, it turns into more of a grimace at the most, and is pretty cheesy at the least. But, this evening, got to see her "pure joy smile."

We have some good friends that have a cabin on a lake. We have been blessed to join them on quite a few occasions. Usually we have at least one late night of cards, beer, and great conversation. One evening in particular it was really late, and toward the end of the week so we were really tired and the conversation was digressing rapidly somewhere in the realm of flatulence. Anyway, my husband was doubled over laughing uncontrollably. When he finally recovered, he commented that he laughed until he "lost control of his face." I was reminded of that when I was watching Kylie laugh. No inhibition, no self-consciousness, no concerns, no worries, just pure joy.

Oh, that I could lose myself like that. To experience on a regular basis true joy. And even more - to seek it out! Can you imagine - seeking opportunities to lose control - yikes! Whether it be in laughing (it does happen occasionally), or in worship, or in anything, I believe that some of the most intense freedom experiences happen when all inhibitions are tossed aside. God, make it more of a daily experience. Let me know the joy of being in YOU!!!!

So, here's to laughing until you lose control of you face!!


Just Being Me said...

Great article D - I'm with you laughing until you control of of your face is pure joy. Love ya, N

Tom Zawacki said...

"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little (Kylie) children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven"

May we all live as free as Kylie is!

Nice post...


skidmarksontheside said...

Any possibility you could get me an invite up to that cabin on the lake? Sounds like a cool place... and BEER? wow.

Here's to losing control.